Observe and Reflect

I wish I could be there during someone's revelation; to see their face change from once confused to all knowing. I'd feel honored having shared that experience with them, even though they werent expecting it.

I had one today. Small, but immensely worth it.

Quiet times, personal feelings, thoughts and dreams throughout the day tend to make you wonder who you are when you're amidst a contradiction. I do it sometimes. I refuse to deny it, because I'm like every other human being that questions their reality and sometimes I fall off track, too. You know, when you say one thing and do something completely different? Yeah. It happens. Not lies, just altered perceptions of abstract ideas. I'm not perfect; I know that. I seldom make sense to others, but if it makes sense to me, then that makes one of us---and that counts for something.

Ideas. Powerful thoughts lacking manifestation. Imagine, all of the minds out there, this very second, with ideas for something better. Things like insecurity, jealousy, unaccepting cultures, and frequent injustice are what keep them surpressed. I sometimes imagine, time and time again, that for one day everyone would simultaneously convert their ideas in to an actuality. The power would be so intense, and the globe would radiate an energy so vast that every single one of us out there would feel it in some aspect or another. It would be crazy beautiful.

Here are some things that I commonly wonder about.....

And I wonder if others wonder the same things. I wonder what our wonders would be if they collided in a wonderous fashion; on any wonderful day....

Have you ever listened to a sound so perfect, you know, the kinds that make you wish it would never stop? Whether it be in music, in nature, in the voice of a loved one; noises that make you so grateful to be able to experience the feelings they entail....

Have you ever looked at an image and wondered how someone could muster up the ability to create such a thing from whichever elements they've chosen; and then, possibly, have noted to yourself having thought the same thing at one time, too?

Have you ever felt a feeling so profound, usually resulting in goosebumps, elevated heartbeat and heightened sensitivity to everything within your soul?

Have you ever cried because these feelings were so deep that you felt it were almost unreal?

Have you ever truly contemplated what a coincidence really is?

Have you ever thought of ANY of those possibilities when you hear someone tell you that anything is possible?

Have you ever felt these feelings without self inducing them by means of a manufactured alternation of your reality?

To think that our magnificent minds get wrapped up in dead end jobs, abusive relationships with people and substances, insecurities and empty competitions is extremely sad. And the fact that I'm aware of this and watch it happen, knowing that theres nothing I can do to change it, sucks. All I can do is observe and reflect. Observe and reflect. Observe and reflect.


It makes me think of how I'm going to percieve my day tomorrow; when I wake up and go to a place where a gaggle of my equals will be enduring just another day at our dead end job to make the money to pay the bills to support the life we live to buy all of the things that make us feel whole to only be broke at the end of the week and then continue the need to go back to our dead end jobs and we repeat the cycle until we cant take it anymore and do something crazy enough to terminate the dead end job we're in and people around us are affected in some way; large or small and they raise hell or do nothing and we move on and then things change people come and go and it sucks, especially when you're one to become easily attached and once again, you move on and 5 years down the road you find yourself asking the same fucking questions as to why you're where you are and you wonder when the day comes where you feel as though you are truly happy but you cant because you now have more bills from an education that go you nowhere except a complex that you think you're better than the next guy because you sat through some classes and earned a degree or certificate that supposedly defines you and who you are and you dont have shit to show for it and then.....and then.....and then you think all of the happiness was in the past when your life had less responsibility and you start to determine that the best things in life are only free because you've spent more time and money on the things you're currently stressing over and it sucksssss........

But.....

Then you have one of those wonderous feelings.
And you begin to remember.
That this is the true purpose of life.
To go through any situation and experience that amazing feeling.
And learn to maintain it.
So that we wont always be stuck in some kind of rat race for the rest of our lives here on earth.

So the next time you're stuck behind the asshole that just cut you off on your way to work, stuck in traffic after spilling your coffee all over your expensive car and outfit that you wore to impress the cute co-worker, or having a bad day because nothing seems to make sense and go right for you and everyone is somehow avoiding their own day to fuck up yours.......

Remember....

It's worth it.